I am a single mother(26) of three kids who I love with all my heart but feel as though I have let them down in the worst possible way. My two boys are 10 and 8 and my little girl is only 4. Christmas is only days away and we've not even got our xmas tree up yet because i am dreading seeing their little faces on xmas morning. I was in a very viliont relationship and started taking drugs. I have only very recently came out of this relationship, well ran away from it to be precise and got myself clean. You see this man needed me on these devil drugs to keep me doing what he wanted, when he wanted and how he wanted. We were blessed to get a fully furnished house as we had lost everything in a fire, the kids have been through so much. People tell me that I should be proud that I have cleaned my self up and am pklanning to get back to college and finish my studies, but how does that make up for my kids having nothing on xmas morning. I don't know where to look for help, I am in tears all the time especially when they speak of all they lost in the fire and of all they hope santas going to bring them. Who can I ask for help this late on? If anyone out their has a large heart and can halp in any way please email me on wild.designer@yahoo.co.uk.
